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Jiayi (they/them)
carabinerr@proton.me
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21-02-2026: February so far

This month has gone by so fast and I have for the majority of the time felt very stressed and somewhat in a daze, letting it slip past me. Going in to February I knew I was gonna be overwhelmed with school; academic burnout has been a pattern for me since I was a teen.

It usually goes great the first few days and then one day I don't catch up on my to-do list of things and boom, suddenly I'm two weeks behind everything. It sucks, but I am slowly getting back on track and by early March I should be caught up. Maybe even by the end of the upcoming week if I am in my best element.

Anyways, I spend a lot of time talking about school. It preoccupies my mind even when I'm doing something entirely else, and I feel that I have been talking too much about it both privately, on here, and to people around me, so these are some other things that have taken up my mind in February.


'Witch Hat Atelier' Anime adaptation

You do not understand how loong I've been waiting for this. Usually I try not to collect physical books/manga/comics, as I like borrowing from the library instead to save some money, but I have a small collection of the WHA mangas laying on my shelf because I keep rereading them. The main trailer just came out yesterday and I am so excited for this, it looks soooo good and promising. Exactly how I imagine it animated.

And it premieres on the 6th of April! The day my partner and my brother have their birthdays. What an amazing day.




Valentines

For valentines day my partner sent me flowers from across the world to my front door. They are beautiful and somehow still alive despite the mediocre sunlight and freezing temperatures where I live. I am not well-versed in flowers enough to know what each individual species is, but I think the white ones are lillies and on the second day this really gorgeous red one bloomed. Thank you Joey <3




Games

Balatro: I saw it was 20% off on steam so I bought it finally. I am addicted. Where the hell have I been, why did i not play this game when it came out. I am playing every day and it is kind of a problem, I need to stop. I don't usually play a lot of roguelites/roguelikes but I get it now. omg.

Thank god the creator is not making booster packs or I would have a gambling problem.

I was going to download on my phone too, but I think it's best I dont.

Brawl Stars: Funny thing about me that is also extremely ridicoulous, is that I'm apparently very good at this game. I play with my brother and we usually play arena or any mode with a fun map. Since coming back to live with my parents for the next while, I have been paying with him, essentially, every day.


Moving my body

One thing about me is, I spent most of my day at my desk, in front of this screen, since I study compsci and the things I am interested in also involves watching media and playing games on my computer. It seems to not have been a problem before I started uni, as I would have time to do other things more often, like reading, meeting up with friends, going to cafes etc. But since I have to be in front of a screen, it is difficult to get off it.

This is not good for my eyes, nor my back and definitely not my knees, since I sit in this position where they're gonna be fucked up in like 10-20 years.

Thus I have started working out at home with dumbbells every other day, mostly working my upper body and I have stuck pretty consistently with it. It makes me feel strong and good and less guilty when I sit down at my desk.

I have also been taking some lovely long walks in the neighbourhood. It is still freezing at this point, but I love the cold winter air, so it's not so bad. Here is a view of an early morning walk: